Thursday, October 15, 2009

Standing Outside the Fire

Sometimes when I listen to music I cry.

I just do, okay?

I was minding my own business on my way home from work today when Garth Brooks came on my cute little iPod. Garth was singing "Standing Outside the Fire".

Oh man.

Oh, man.

Not once in my known memory have I not cried while listening to this song. I remember the first time I saw the music video.
I was in the third or fourth grade.
It was after school, and I was watching CMT.
And I cried.
I bawled.
I couldn't breathe.
I don't remember ever feeling like that before.
But mostly, I was embarrassed and was glad no one had seen me crying at a music video.

Fast forward to the year 2005.
I was living in Idaho, in C4, and I had just come home from work. I was walking through the living room when the music video for "Standing Outside the Fire" suddenly appeared on our TV screen.

I stopped.

I had avoided that video my entire life.
And now, there it was.
There wasn't a soul in the living room.
Just me and Garth.
I stood transfixed.
As the message of the song and video unfolded before my eyes and in my heart I started to cry.
Tears were streaming down my face. I basically knew it would happen. I figured Garth and I could have another private moment. It was about time, anyway. It had been years since I had last seen the video.

As I stood there with my things in my arms, my face glowing with tears, eyes glued to the TV screen, I noticed a slight movement of energy to my left. I turn my head and here comes Tara bustling around the corner. She sees me.

She stops.

She stares.

Her mouth opens just a bit.

She looks at the music video.

She looks at me.

She says, "Are you crying???!"

I have no idea what I did then. I only remember Tara's shocked face. She was astounded, I think. I'm pretty sure Tara never looked at me the same after that.

Anyway, I figure you should probably all watch the video.

I hope this version is okay; I didn't watch it all the way through.


Amanda said...

Ok, I didn't realize at first that he was going out for track and field, I thought he was going to try out for football, which I would also have been against. And, I think you would have to be a robot not to cry at that. I mean, it's a cheap shot casting a boy with Down's.

Marissa said...

Don't be embarressed. I cry all the time, especially at commercials, and Paul just laughs at me. And thanks for getting that song stuck in my head.

Jodie said...

Wow...I was not expecting that! I don't quite get why the school bleachers had to be on fire. It was a great effect though.

Jodie said... the way...I was just checking out your links and you've got Bran's old De Novo on their....his new business blog is at but I don't think he's put on any posts yet...but I just thought I'd give you the heads up!

Ky said...

I love that song. That's a great video. I must be a robot, because I didn't cry, but I still thought it was sweet. Does that count?

Tara said...

Okay it was shocking...I dont think I had ever seen you cry before...and a garth brook song really didn't seem like the thing that would put you over the It's a sweet video but just not something that tears me up...I'm just too tough I